Acknowledgements.....................................................................Pg.III
Ch.1 The Life I Lived (My Deceptive Heart)...........................Pg.1
Ch.2 Lonely But Not Alone........................................................Pg.13
Ch.3 Back To The Beginning.....................................................Pg.25
Ch.4 Taking Hold Of God's Will For Me..................................Pg.33
Ch.5 Giving Me A New Life......................................................Pg.43
Ch.6 Pressing On With God.......................................................Pg.57
Ch.7 Jesus The Healer...............................................................Pg.59
Ch.8 Jesus' Return.....................................................................Pg.75
Prayer for Salvation.....................................................................Pg.82
Order request form......................................................................Pg.83
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else thinks about you. You are an esteemed and valuable
person to Him, as precious to Him as the day you were
conceived. He has made you an heir, a co-heir with Christ. He
is for you, not against you. All He asks is that you take one step
forward in faith and He will meet your need right where you are,
just the way you are. There's no having to clean up your act or
change anything before you come. Just come as you are and
He will receive you.
God knew with just a little of my faith that He could move
mountains. There I stood face to face with the living God. Tears
were streaming down my face, as I thought of what Jesus must
have looked like nailed to that old wooden cross.
I lifted my heart that seemed too heavy for me to carry any longer
and as if it were an old rusted anchor, I heaved all my 33 years
into the flowing river of the Lord's blood. Revelation 12:11
states, "They overcame him (Satan) by the blood of the Lamb
and by the word of their testimony." The preacher then took the
time to lead me in a prayer of repentance and assured me that I
was not alone, that God was with me, and that He would not fail
me.
An awful thing is the damage that I had caused, not just to
myself, but also to the people that God so loved. "The heart is
deceitful above all things and beyond cure. Who can understand
it?" (Jeremiah 17:9)................................................................. pg.18
with my life if I wouldn't have let myself get into such situations.
Maybe I wouldn't have turned to God had I met that certain
special person that was just right for me. No, even the best
relationship revolves around hearts that possess a deep
emptiness that have never been able to be satisfied by
human hands. No matter how happy or successful a person
may seem, that concealed hollow place in the heart remains
unavoidably without peace and contentment as it gnaws at what
little self-made pleasure one does have until Jesus is allowed to
come in and take His place.
It could be for similar or different reasons your heart aches as
mine once did. Maybe you have that empty feeling inside that
you have tried to fill with the love and expectations of others.
Aside from the will of God for your life, you have tried in vain to fill
in the void with what seemed promising, but it ended up being a
temporary pleasure. You tried everything to reach out to
happiness. You tried everything to let go of the pain, but you
never have tried the one genuine love of Jesus Christ. When
you are living out of the will of God, the things you go
through serve purpose to God. The Bible tells us that our
hearts are the perfect sacrifices of God and that He will not
despise or look down on us with contempt. Psalms 51:17 says,
"The sacrifices of God are a broken spirit; a broken and contrite
heart, O God, you will not despise."
Jesus has become the solid rock of my heart's foundation. He
has become the firm ground I have pitched my heart's tent upon
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and constructed within me a new heart by His forgiveness and
grace. He continues to color it with His own reflections. With
strokes that give transformation, His divine brush dispenses the
promises of His words leaving an aura of refreshing newness
and the incense of sweet hope.
God the Father calls the abuser with the abused, the neglecter
with the neglected, the lover and the unloved to come into His
glorious presence and find rest for the soul.
A few days later, I went to my best friend's house to tell her what
had happened to me. Before then I hadn't told anyone. If I could
tell anyone, she would have to be the one. We were close as
sisters, and I wanted to share with her what had happened to
me while it was still a recent event.
While at her house, I asked her to come out and sit in my car
with me to have some privacy. I told her of my decision to live
for Christ. I told her that Jesus had sacrificed Himself for our
sins and that the life we were living was not going to give us
eternal life in heaven. Only through accepting what Christ had
done and receiving Him as Lord and Savior of our lives would
we be guaranteed such a gift. My friend started crying and then
became angry with me. I couldn't help but tell her the truth in the
hope that she too would accept Christ as her Savior.
Slowly backing out of the driveway, I watched her walk away
from me toward her front door steps. I couldn't help but feel in
my heart that in some way I had lost her as the best friend I ever
had. ..........................................................................................pg.20
decision she would have to make on her own someday. "For
God so loved the world that He gave His one and only Son, that
whoever believes in Him shall not perish but have eternal life."
(John 3:16)
He had done it for me, for my family, for my friends, and for
WHOSEVER would believe because we were that important to
Him, because we meant that much to Him, because He loved
us with an unfathomable, unlimited love. No matter how we live,
no matter what our lives are about, He loves us and nothing can
stop us from living a blessed life on this earth and an eternal life
in heaven. "God demonstrates His own love for us in this:
While we were still sinners, Christ died for us." (Romans
5:8) While I was out in my pleasurable sin, in His affliction, He
died for me. While you were out enjoying your sin, He faithfully
died for you. He was concerned enough to die for you. He
was thinking of us when we weren't thinking of Him.
Nothing can stop you except yourself, your own free will. The
choice that you make or choose not to make will be an eternal
one. God has done all He has set out to do by nailing all your
sin to the cross with Jesus and allowing Him to take all the
punishment. It's not that God loved Jesus less; it's that God
knew you and didn't want to be without you. He knew we could
never be with Him unless He gave a perfect, unblemished
sacrifice.
He wouldn't allow sin to come between Him and us. So, He did
something about it. "For the sake of His great name the Lord
will not reject His people, because the Lord was pleased to
make .......................................................................................pg.21
with you; do not be dismayed, for I am your God. I will
strengthen you and help you; I will uphold you with my righteous
right hand." (Isaiah 41:10)
I have to admit something to you. When I was sitting there with
my eyes closed about to unload my whole life to God, I felt
myself being somewhat afraid. I really didn't know what to think
about it all because my past was flashing through my mind. I
was thinking of all the shameful things that I had done and yet
there hung this man suspended on a cross with three long, rusty
nails. He was hanging there for me, and it didn't matter to Him
what I had done in my life. I am so grateful for His love and
mercy.
"For I am convinced that neither death nor life, neither angels
nor demons, neither the present nor the future, nor any powers
neither height nor depth, nor anything else in all creation, will be
able to separate us from the love of God that is in Christ Jesus
our Lord." (Romans 8:38-39) I was so grateful for what my
Lord had done for me. It was something that I knew I could
have never done for myself. That is what God's grace is all
about doing something that I knew I could have never done for
myself. That is what God's grace is all about doing something
for us that we could never do for ourselves. Trusting in God and
the unconditional love that He had for me made it easier to take
that step toward Him.
He drove out my enemy before me, saying, "Destroy him!"
(Deuteronomy 33:27) He will drive out your enemy before you
that is trying to destroy YOU! His love for you has fought the
battle to keep you safe, to give you the victory, to help you
overcome and stand in triumph washed by the ...................pg.22
God take it into His hands. While it's too big and too much for
you to handle, God wants you to know that He is here for you
day and night, and sees you when you're crying out in anguish,
anger, and frustration. He has made a way for your victory
against your enemy Satan who brings his army of poverty,
disease, depression, suicide, drugs, homosexuality, and other
various troops of destruction against you. God will strengthen
your heart and give you hope. He says to you, "Never will I
leave you; never will I forsake you." (Hebrews 13:5)...........pg.23
