Hello, my name is Sylvia Huerta.
My old classmates will know me
by my maiden name, Sylvia
Garcia. I can't tell you the many
times I have looked back and
said, "Thank you Lord for
bringing me where I am today." It
wasn't always easy, but I didn't
go through it alone. Jesus has
been my guide without ceasing. I
was taken from a life of 26 years
in homosexuality. I was a lesbian
from childhood, since the first
grade. I had just gotten out of
another dead end relationship
with the love I thought was my
life. I would have never thought
this life was not what God had
intended for anyone, especially
for me. I remember my friends
and the good times we had, but
there is a time in our lives when
we have to decide for ourselves
what we really want out of life,
the parties, the drinking, the girls
who I thought were great, but
was that all there was to this life?
Maybe for some people it's
enough, but not for me. I wanted
more out of life. I wanted
fulfillment that would stay after
the night turned to day. I wanted
commitment that by then seemed
so easy to slip away. I wanted a
love that would last a lifetime in
my heart not just in my
apartment. Some relationships
lasted two years. Some lasted
five and then were over. All
individually different, each bond
met different needs in my life.
Finding someone to be happy
with was becoming impossible. I
just couldn't seem to give my
heart the fulfillment it so
desperately needed. My mind
didn't have to tell me. My heart
could speak for itself. It always
seemed to cry out to remind me
of the empty place that no one
was able to fill. Going from
relationship to relationship,
thinking the next woman would
be the one, was not going to
gratify my heart any longer. My
company of friends brought along
laughter from the camaraderie,
but the nights were long and the
days were short for a heart who
lived alone. It was hard to leave
her when it was over. This time it
wasn't my decision. I left upon
her request. I walked away
without knowing what the future
would provide for me now. A
purpose in life would have been
nice. Sure I had a good job and
found the perfect apartment, but
a purposeful life was nowhere in
my reach. I really yearned for a
great love, the greatest love ever,
and my persistent heart wouldn't
rest with anything less. I was
alone in my apartment. It gave
me time to think. Time to really
meditate on what I could do for
myself. I sat there watching the
tube and a man of God (whom I
have never seen again) spoke
directly to me. He asked what
was it that was weighing heavy
on my heart. What was it that
held me from a new life with
Jesus? I didn't know that Jesus
had shed His life sustaining blood
for me to be free. I hadn't heard
of how much pain this Man had
endured. He was beaten like a
beast, left beyond recognition,
whipped over and over with His
flesh stripped and pulled from His
body. Despised and spit upon He
was crowned with long thorns
pounded into His head. Finally,
being nailed to the cross He
endured the pain for all my sin
and shame.
My old classmates will know me
by my maiden name, Sylvia
Garcia. I can't tell you the many
times I have looked back and
said, "Thank you Lord for
bringing me where I am today." It
wasn't always easy, but I didn't
go through it alone. Jesus has
been my guide without ceasing. I
was taken from a life of 26 years
in homosexuality. I was a lesbian
from childhood, since the first
grade. I had just gotten out of
another dead end relationship
with the love I thought was my
life. I would have never thought
this life was not what God had
intended for anyone, especially
for me. I remember my friends
and the good times we had, but
there is a time in our lives when
we have to decide for ourselves
what we really want out of life,
the parties, the drinking, the girls
who I thought were great, but
was that all there was to this life?
Maybe for some people it's
enough, but not for me. I wanted
more out of life. I wanted
fulfillment that would stay after
the night turned to day. I wanted
commitment that by then seemed
so easy to slip away. I wanted a
love that would last a lifetime in
my heart not just in my
apartment. Some relationships
lasted two years. Some lasted
five and then were over. All
individually different, each bond
met different needs in my life.
Finding someone to be happy
with was becoming impossible. I
just couldn't seem to give my
heart the fulfillment it so
desperately needed. My mind
didn't have to tell me. My heart
could speak for itself. It always
seemed to cry out to remind me
of the empty place that no one
was able to fill. Going from
relationship to relationship,
thinking the next woman would
be the one, was not going to
gratify my heart any longer. My
company of friends brought along
laughter from the camaraderie,
but the nights were long and the
days were short for a heart who
lived alone. It was hard to leave
her when it was over. This time it
wasn't my decision. I left upon
her request. I walked away
without knowing what the future
would provide for me now. A
purpose in life would have been
nice. Sure I had a good job and
found the perfect apartment, but
a purposeful life was nowhere in
my reach. I really yearned for a
great love, the greatest love ever,
and my persistent heart wouldn't
rest with anything less. I was
alone in my apartment. It gave
me time to think. Time to really
meditate on what I could do for
myself. I sat there watching the
tube and a man of God (whom I
have never seen again) spoke
directly to me. He asked what
was it that was weighing heavy
on my heart. What was it that
held me from a new life with
Jesus? I didn't know that Jesus
had shed His life sustaining blood
for me to be free. I hadn't heard
of how much pain this Man had
endured. He was beaten like a
beast, left beyond recognition,
whipped over and over with His
flesh stripped and pulled from His
body. Despised and spit upon He
was crowned with long thorns
pounded into His head. Finally,
being nailed to the cross He
endured the pain for all my sin
and shame.
He wanted to give me the love
that was to fulfill this tired heart
of mine. His passion was to be
the greatest Love I would ever
possess. He wanted to have a
committed RELATIONSHIP with
me that would prove to be
unconditional and significant. He
loved me! Jesus died and for
three days He was in the depth of
Death and Hell. But He could not
be restrained. On the third day
He rose. In power and victory, He
sat at the right hand of God the
Father! And this power and
victory is for US! FOR US! Every
thing that He did was FOR US!
The man on t.v. said, "Close your
eyes and picture yourself
standing next to a river of blood
the blood that Jesus shed for
you." He went on to say, "I'm
going to ask you to take the
name of that which is weighing
heavy on your heart and throw it
into the river of the blood of
Jesus and you will see it sink,
never to be seen again." Well I
thought about it for a while, and
sitting there still with my eyes
closed, I could see myself
standing at the edge of the river.
I lifted the name of "Lesbian" and
heaved it into the deep river of
His blood. Crying, I sat there with
the Savior of my soul, Jesus
Christ. And the preacher on t.v.
was right. I haven't seen it since.
That was back in November of
1993. Every day I walk with
Jesus and He walks with me.
There are times He has had to
carry me. At other times He's had
to nudge me. And often times
He's had to slow me down, but He
has never once left my side,
never once left me abandoned. I
married a year later to a man,
who God has given me a totally
different perspective on, and we
have three beautiful children. I
never thought I would have a
family of my own. This is just a
by product of what Jesus' love
has done for me. To marry was
my own choice. I will always love
Jesus first and most of all. I will
forever keep Jesus as my
Greatest Love of All. He is the
One that keeps my life together.
My heart has found it's home at
last in Jesus Christ. I didn't know
life had a different meaning to
God than it did to this world. To
us it meant living it up, acting
crazy, getting loaded all night,
and loving who we felt like loving
at the time. To Him it meant
giving it all up, making a
commitment, loving us for an
eternity, and offering us freedom
by enduring the cross and Hell
(so we wouldn't have to). What
are you going to do when you
stand face to face with Almighty
Father and He asks you, "What
did you do with my Son Jesus
whom I gave up for you?" What
are you going to say? What do
you think He's waiting for you to
do with the sacrifice of His only
Son? The apostle Paul warns us
to judge ourselves so that we
won't come under judgement in
1Cor.11:31. Jesus was sacrificed
for you to be free from the chains
of homosexuality, free from all sin
that binds itself to you. I love Him
because He first loved me and
the Truth is..... HE LOVES YOU
TOO! Receive Jesus as your Lord
and Savior and take hold of a new
life in Him.
that was to fulfill this tired heart
of mine. His passion was to be
the greatest Love I would ever
possess. He wanted to have a
committed RELATIONSHIP with
me that would prove to be
unconditional and significant. He
loved me! Jesus died and for
three days He was in the depth of
Death and Hell. But He could not
be restrained. On the third day
He rose. In power and victory, He
sat at the right hand of God the
Father! And this power and
victory is for US! FOR US! Every
thing that He did was FOR US!
The man on t.v. said, "Close your
eyes and picture yourself
standing next to a river of blood
the blood that Jesus shed for
you." He went on to say, "I'm
going to ask you to take the
name of that which is weighing
heavy on your heart and throw it
into the river of the blood of
Jesus and you will see it sink,
never to be seen again." Well I
thought about it for a while, and
sitting there still with my eyes
closed, I could see myself
standing at the edge of the river.
I lifted the name of "Lesbian" and
heaved it into the deep river of
His blood. Crying, I sat there with
the Savior of my soul, Jesus
Christ. And the preacher on t.v.
was right. I haven't seen it since.
That was back in November of
1993. Every day I walk with
Jesus and He walks with me.
There are times He has had to
carry me. At other times He's had
to nudge me. And often times
He's had to slow me down, but He
has never once left my side,
never once left me abandoned. I
married a year later to a man,
who God has given me a totally
different perspective on, and we
have three beautiful children. I
never thought I would have a
family of my own. This is just a
by product of what Jesus' love
has done for me. To marry was
my own choice. I will always love
Jesus first and most of all. I will
forever keep Jesus as my
Greatest Love of All. He is the
One that keeps my life together.
My heart has found it's home at
last in Jesus Christ. I didn't know
life had a different meaning to
God than it did to this world. To
us it meant living it up, acting
crazy, getting loaded all night,
and loving who we felt like loving
at the time. To Him it meant
giving it all up, making a
commitment, loving us for an
eternity, and offering us freedom
by enduring the cross and Hell
(so we wouldn't have to). What
are you going to do when you
stand face to face with Almighty
Father and He asks you, "What
did you do with my Son Jesus
whom I gave up for you?" What
are you going to say? What do
you think He's waiting for you to
do with the sacrifice of His only
Son? The apostle Paul warns us
to judge ourselves so that we
won't come under judgement in
1Cor.11:31. Jesus was sacrificed
for you to be free from the chains
of homosexuality, free from all sin
that binds itself to you. I love Him
because He first loved me and
the Truth is..... HE LOVES YOU
TOO! Receive Jesus as your Lord
and Savior and take hold of a new
life in Him.
| LoveNotes To: YOU! From:GOD! |
| (Romans 5:8) God demonstrates His own love for us in this: While we were still sinners, Christ died for us. |
| (John 3:16) "For God so loved the world that He gave His one and only Son, that whoever believes in Him shall not perish but have eternal life." |
| (Romans 3:22-24) There is no difference, for all have sinned and fall short of the glory of God, and are justified freely by His grace through the redemption that came by Christ Jesus. |
| (Ephesians 2:8,9) For it is by grace you have been saved, through faith-and this not from yourselves, it is the gift of God-not by works, so that no one can boast. |
| (2Corinthians 5:17) Therefore, if anyone is in Christ, he is a new creation; the old has gone, the new has come! |
| (2Corinthians 5:19) .....God was reconciling the world to Himself in Christ, not counting men's sins against them. |
| (Proverbs 3:5,6) Trust in the Lord with all your heart and lean not on your own understanding; in all your ways acknowledge Him, and He will make your paths straight. |
| (John 15:13) Greater love has no man than this, that He lay down His life for His friends. |
| God Loves You! |
| (Romans 10:8-10) "The Word is near you; it is in your mouth and in your heart," that is, the Word of faith we are proclaiming: That if you confess with your mouth, "Jesus is Lord," and believe in your heart that God raised Him from the dead, you will be saved. For it is with your heart that you believe and are justified, and it is with your mouth that you confess and are saved. |
Don't want
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